Inadequate

Too many times, most of the time, I concentrate on all the things I do wrong, constantly bringing up my faults, imperfections. I remind myself I can be better.

Tonight it's one of those nights.

Depression is covering my thoughts, making life once again so blurry and at moments I feel like my pain is unbearable. It is a monster that enter my mind, and dwells there. It doesn't leave until it gets the best of me and it see me broken down in a corner. Then when IT is satisfy and IT will leave me there, alone, crying for something I can't fix, control, or sometimes even remember.

In my deepest moments I turned myself to Church talks to find some relief.
Tonight I came a cross this, which conforted me:

"Some of you sisters may feel inadequate because you can't seem to do all you want to do. Motherhood and parenting are most challenging roles. You also have Church callings that you fulfill so capably and conscientiously...In general you noble sisters are doing a much better job of holding it all together and making it work than you realize. May I suggest that you take your challenges one day at a time. Do the best you can. Look at everything through the lens of eternity. If you will do this, life will take on a different perspective."
James E. Faust

One day at the time.

The road to perfection is achieved by doing the very best I (you) can every day.
I am grateful for the knowledge I have of my Father in Heaven. It brings me peace to know, that HE KNOWS. I feel like he is holding my hand through this hard path and he is healing my heart. Today more than yesterday. Tomorrow we will see.

Thank you for your hugs and love today. It was wonderful to wake up and have you come and snuggle with me.
You smell like Heaven!

Love you,
MAMMA